Over the past few years I have chosen a word to carry throughout the year. It has proven to be a touchstone, a question, something to ponder over. Previous years words have been Open, Accept, Allow. This year the word Release has come forth as a direction for 2016. The dictionary defines release as: allowing or enabling an escape from confinement, allowing (something ) to move or act freely. What in me wants to be released? Released from what?
Ultimately I know that I am moving towards the ultimate release. I am of an age that I know my life will end, it is no longer an abstract concept. When I look within there is still worry, fear, concern and all sorts of questions. What does my future hold? Will I ever be able to retire? How do I want to spend the rest of my days? What has my life been about? Why does fear still come up? What am I afraid of?
In case you are thinking that I know the answers to these questions, I do not. I do know something about holding a question, coming to myself in the present moment and seeing what is there to be seen, trusting that I can handle whatever is seen in the present. I look forward to the journey of the next year and seeing how the idea of releasing works it way through the year. I can think of some things I might want to release: fear, possessions,pounds, worry, expectation. In my gut I know that this release needs to come from a larger place than my rational mind, this is beyond the mind. It needs to be felt and experienced from a deeper place. Let the journey begin.
Ultimately I know that I am moving towards the ultimate release. I am of an age that I know my life will end, it is no longer an abstract concept. When I look within there is still worry, fear, concern and all sorts of questions. What does my future hold? Will I ever be able to retire? How do I want to spend the rest of my days? What has my life been about? Why does fear still come up? What am I afraid of?
In case you are thinking that I know the answers to these questions, I do not. I do know something about holding a question, coming to myself in the present moment and seeing what is there to be seen, trusting that I can handle whatever is seen in the present. I look forward to the journey of the next year and seeing how the idea of releasing works it way through the year. I can think of some things I might want to release: fear, possessions,pounds, worry, expectation. In my gut I know that this release needs to come from a larger place than my rational mind, this is beyond the mind. It needs to be felt and experienced from a deeper place. Let the journey begin.
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